The conventional thing to be expected here is to engage in promotion. To sell one’s products or services. To sell one’s self.

I won’t say that some of this won’t happen at some point in future – but it is not what I am about – or what I intended for this to be – and understanding this would go a long way toward also understanding why I’ve been so “lazy” about developing this domain over the years.

The truth is that I do not have a positive relationship with myself. I do not have (nor do I seek) a positive relationship with any higher entity. I do not have a positive relationship with most people out there. In a sense I am a “lone wolf” type.

In spite of being reasonably well-worded, I have also always had difficulty expressing myself via other means. I loathe when words fail to reach my tongue and too well know the indignity of being spoken over or of otherwise having my words fail to reach the space between the ears of others.

Acknowledging my strengths is a coping mechanism. Blaming my shortfalls, that prevent me from doing that which I require, on elements perceived to be out of my control doubly so.

I am an angry, resentful, individual. Both these traits byproducts of my lessons learnt.

I ‘am’ self-concerned – but I am not a narcissist, I don’t think…

I can say this with a reasonable enough level of confidence because in all my years I have never chosen nor desired to tread upon the heads of others to further my own ends.

I have not roped others into my desired ways forward, and have fought an uphill battle with getting anything I desire off of the ground, because I could not be sure of boons worthy of others’ investments.

In other words, I have been and continue to be predisposed towards being a loser.

In the event that this might stir pity (not an emotion that I’d want myself to be regarded with – as I remain rather proud – but I can see how it might), then the best donation that you could provide me would be that of advice (I have a job that reasonably covers my financial needs – and I am okay in that regards). I may be reached via directly.

I may come back to expand upon this.